Sub-Zero-Pointless Eclipse

I have a lot of work to do on myself. And as wonderful as I believe
we could make something, I have nothing to give to you or anyone else.

This I choose to live by, not because all is hopeless. I am not depriving myself of something magical, I am deciding to create something beautiful from my solitude.

I am an empty hollow shell. Void. Sub-Zero-Pointless Wave /  Particle Duality.

Confusion and Delusion.

Infusion of Illusion.

Fission of Vision.

Pulsar, Quasar, Dead-Star.

The Immortal Portal.

The Angle of Angels; Fallen from the Quadrivium into the Trivium.

From Quaternion Geometry into Linear Algebra.

Maybe, I have all I need within me.

Or, I
am just a broken relic that may look tempting on the outside, but I am
really just a shadow of a demon, a hopeless, sad and shallow, barren,
cold and dead, former remnant of a soul.

I am the Black-Hole after the Super-Nova.

The Monster. The Monastery. The Moon-Star. The Rock that Blocks out the Light – ECLIPSE.

“I’ve lost the Sunshine in My Heart. Everything has gone from Light to Dark…” (Without Love)

I
can only offer you my apology for leading you to think anything was
possible through my marveling at your loveliness. Just be a friend and move on without this idea of “us” in your life.

Never again fall for
my moments of desire. I get carried away and hopeful in the presence of
beauty; but I am not fit for anything like a romantic relationship.

I
must just admit to myself that if I ever have any hope of salvation by
knowing my self, I must remain romantically uninvolved and live as a
martial monk. An idealized, Capoeira version of Shaolin Monks. If only I was so dedicated.

I should not go on thinking my purpose is anything other than this. What more can I do other than make better of myself? On the periodic table, I am the Noblest Gas; destined to be joyfully alone.

Please, leave me to myself.